Today is their Annual Day of Remembrance. It is about remembering those who are no longer with us.
It was beautiful.....I cried and cried but I wasn't sad. I am always very relieved when I find myself at a place where I can let myself go and have a good cry. I love a safe place. I embrace a good cry; a chance to let my guard down.
Ironically, I now embrace a good conversation about the mortality in life. We can't escape death. It is something that effects every family. It is something that has touched all of us. It is something that cannot be ignored.
But death in itself was not the purpose of today's service. Today's service was how we need to embrace each other during this process. That we are all together as a community and our job as a community it to celebrate our short, lovely, joyous, life we have with each other.
And that the only way we can get through the sadness is together.
And this made me cry again. Because if one thing has held true in losing Samantha is that we have and continue to, get through this together.....all of us.
At the end, we were invited to go up to the altar and place a memento of our loved one. I brought Samantha's pink shoes that ride with me in car. I got up to the front with her cute, pink, patent leather Mary Janes and said, "for my daughter."
And proceeded to ugly cry to my seat. The ugly cry has become a good friend.
I went to sit down but the man in front of me turned around, embraced my hand with tears in his eyes and hugged me.
I hugged him back.
Because you have to get through this together.