Hi Everyone! I am starting to post snippets from my book, The Detour. Pull out your red pen and let me know what you think.
I sat in the emergency room at Children’s Hospital assessing my neighbors. Young mothers with runny-nosed toddlers, large families who didn’t speak English arguing amongst themselves…a TV in the corner droned old 80’s sitcoms. I sat down on a threadbare sofa.
“Don’t touch anything” my husband said. “Who knows what this place is crawling with.”
I looked down at my daughter. Her complexion had taken on a grey color, her eyes were wide. I had never seen eyes so wide. I could see the whites around her iris and pupils. Her head was moving back and forth against the baby carrier. Mechanically I pulled out some antiseptic wipes and laid them on the seat beside me.
“Here” I said pointing to the wipes.
“Thanks” Bill proceeded to wipe everything down in his immediate vicinity; hands, face, car seat carrier, arm rest of the chair.
“It’s not going to help” I wanted to say. “This whole place is infested with something invisible, untouchable, uncontrollable, beyond us.” I didn’t say a word but let him try and destroy the onslaught of bacteria that seemed to be seeping into our lives.
I had never felt so dirty in my life. We left the ski resort in a hurry; anxious to get Sarah down the mountain, to try and figure out what’s wrong with her, to try and fix her. I had stuffed my hair into a ski hat and pulled on yesterday’s sweater. I had a musky, unshowered smell about me and was trying desperately to remember if I had brushed my teeth.
I had smeared on a little make-up in hopes of covering up my worry. I smiled to myself at the irony….cover-up to cover-up emotion, foundation to strengthen our foundation. My shield against whatever was going on…. as long as my lipstick is refreshed, everything will be ok.
Bill handed me a Power Bar….peanut butter. It was sweet, sticky glue in my mouth. I guess I needed to eat something. I really wanted a cup of strong, hot coffee; or maybe a shot of something, a little Jack trickling down my throat, tingling my toes….ahhh self medication.
But no coffee, no Jack; just the three of us waiting with the rest. Damn.
“Samson? Sarah Samson?” The nurse called.
“That was fast.” I said to my husband.
“The benefits of good insurance.” He answered.
"Grief does not change you Hazel. It reveals you." John Green, The Fault in our Stars
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
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2 comments:
Wow, amazing writing my friend. Can't wait for the book - and the review on Oprah! Keep it up!!
Love,
Heidi
I love it! I'm already hooked os you better keep it up. You are a very entertaining writer my friend.
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